Journal 1 : Pretending,

I always think of the character as being me. But me wearing a 'coat' , which may be a different way of speaking, moving or regarding other people. To me, acting is pretending, just lie a kids playing, only you pretend as if it were really, really real.

I don't think that we necessarily to lie. I mean, we make our own living by pretending that we're someone else. I don't tell tall tales. I always tell the truth. The truth is, I hate people who always pretend good in front at me. But at my back, they talk shit about me.

You ask me about regret? Let me tell you a few things about regret.

There is no end to it.I don't fear your judgment 'cause I already know who I am.

Someone asked me, the other day, that if I could change five things about my life, what would I change?

My answer: nothing this is who I am, who I'm meant to be. I love being me; even when I'm feeling crappy and I hate myself I wouldn't change a thing. 

Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins, and there's no such thing as what might have been.Who am I? I am who I say I am. What is broken is broken 
Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes.I'm not going to apologize for it, cause the truth is I'd do it again.You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret.
It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. 



Deep in my heart, I hate people pretending in front of me. I knew when I grow up, I always wanted to be a liar, and if you're television you're lying because you're just pretending to be yourself like I'm doing right now. Honestly,  I hate two faced people. because I don't know which face I have to slap first.